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When I was a teacher we were continually being led to believe that everyone was a type.  Students had learning styles.  Teachers were concrete or random thinkers and that this influenced their methods. And that we had strong and weak intellectual areas. Anything and everything could be divined through questionnaires and personality testing.

The same holds true for writers, I have discovered.  We are owls or hummingbirdsPantsers or Planners.

I am a hummingbird with pantser tendencies. I flit and float and twitter (not literally, I really don’t like Twitter.  It’s writing for the ADHD set),  and though I have a general idea of where a piece of writing is going,  I don’t have a written plan.

I have tried to outline.  God knows that my 11th grade composition teacher, Sr. Mary Catherine, god bless her in whatever corner of hell she is standing in right now, tried to tie me to outlining. I learned how to create one, grudgingly, but never did learn how to stick to it. What happened more often than not was that I would get a better idea and then have to go back and change the outline to fit the paper I was writing for her. This soured me to the usefulness of outlines because they seemed to me to stifle any thought of creative spark and spontaneity and made more detail work for me in the bargain.

Now that I am writing novel length pieces, however, I am beginning to see the point of the owls and the planners. It’s far too easy to get lost in a long story than a short one when you are not a map person. I am actually a “landmark” navigator which amuses my husband to no end.

There is a term for what I do as a writer. It’s called “organic” writing.  Another way of saying that one has no real clue of what one is doing.

But writing is proceeding, people, and decisions about where effort and time are best spent loom large.


I could as easily say fictional men who warped my ideas about love, romance and relationships.

A few weeks ago, I talked Rob into watching the old Rex Harrison/ Gene Tierney movie, The Ghost and Mrs. Muir. It’s about a young post Victorian widow who falls in love with the ghost of a sea captain who died in the house she rents for herself and her young daughter. Tierney is a cipher. Blank and suitably malleable. But Harrison is a stitch. And a man.

Rob’s favorite line now is from the movie,

“I’ve lived a man’s life, and I am not ashamed to admit it.”

After the movie was over, he pressed me to explain why I would have loved such an odd film. It was a favorite long before I was widowed or even married for the first time. And it’s not really all that hopeful because in order for the characters to be together, the widow has to grow old – alone – and die – alone.

But it wasn’t her. It was him. Unabashedly male and yet in a charmingly rakish way that wasn’t overwhelming and still allowed the tender aspects to show.

Of course he was a later influence. My early teachers were soap opera characters. Like Dr. Jeff Webber on General Hospital or Beau Buchanan on One Life to Live. Good guys if a little bit wishy-washy.

But there is something about the old time movie stars that make those today pale in comparison. Clark Gable. Jimmy Stewart and Cary Grant.

Have you ever seen Hellfighters with John Wayne and Jim Hutton? Or the Sons of Katie Elder with Dean Martin? Or how about the final shootout between Robert Mitchum and Martin in Five Card Stud?

Oh, and Yul Brynner!? How could I forget him? When the king and Anna dance, does it get more romantic than that? Or the scene where Ramses informs Nefertiti that she will be his just like his horse but,

“I will love you more and trust you less.”

It a far cry from Tom Hanks and John Cusack. Perhaps we can blame Oprah for that?


Rob woke yesterday morning with memories of Idaho Falls on his mind.

“This time two years ago, I was leaving my sister’s to come meet you for the first time. And it was snowing that day too.”

I hadn’t forgotten our anniversary. I don’t forget important relationship milestones. And I don’t forget life changing moments for which Idaho Falls certainly qualifies. I just hadn’t planned to blog about it because I am sure my dear readers weary of my lovesick teenage gushing about my husband and our marriage.

Rob commemorated the day with a post on his blog. Someone commented to the effect that she wished she knew more of our story. Some of our story is on my blog. Much of it is not. But here are a few links for the curious.

Two years and a bit and it feels like forever and yesterday all at the same time.